You never ever kissed me;
so I would blister.
You only ever held my hand
To push me down,
To fuck me when I bled.
You never ever cared for me;
So I would walk through torture alone,
You only ever said you loved me
When I gave you everything,
When I became my alter ego.
You always said that I was stone cold;
I had good reason to be so.
You always said that I let you down,
Constantly afraid of lies that burn;
But you only ever made me hurt.
You never ever thought I could love you;
I am not incapable of feelings.
You only ever respected me
When I lied to my own face,
When I gave myself away.
You never ever stood by me;
Telling me I was worthless.
If you only ever knew how much I cared for you,
You might have let me in;
There would have been no need for this.
